I’ve just returned from Jenny Craig. Yep, back on the proverbial horse. A friend of mine, inspired by my weight loss last year, began a program to lose 52 lbs. in 1999. And she has! So, when I went to my annual exam last week and had put back on 17 of the 37 lbs. I’d lost, I knew that my idea that I could manage my weight without a program was just a dream. For now at least. Since I need the structure of a program, and Jenny Craig has worked quite well for me in the past, I decided to head back.
Here’s the cool thing: I thought I’d go back with my proverbial tail between my legs, feeling ashamed for having “failed”. Instead, I went in with enthusiasm and renewed commitment, excited for the opportunity to resume my success-filled path. I know that I am a happier person when I’m lighter (I’m not constantly obsessed and mean to myself). And I know I CAN do it. I have before. So, no ultimatums, no threats, no promises… just the assurance that I will be gentle with myself, be proud to have “only” done a bit of damage (and still look damn good, by the way), and be happy to be on the right path — the one that leads AWAY from obsession. That’s an unhealthy trait, and one I’m willing to let go of, once and for all.
Oh, I’m also starting a self-defense class with some friends in January. I’m really looking forward to that, as it will allow me to conquer my demons about being vulnerable AND be a good workout AND have me doing something social with my supportive, loving friends. I’m truly blessed! And proud to be at this point in my life… it’s been a great journey. How thrilling!