Not sure I’ll ever understand suicide.

I mean, of course I understand the emotional heaviness, the absolute despair, the certainty that nothing will ever get better and that there is no hope. I’ve been there. I know.

But even though I get it, it still hits me so hard when someone I know ends her own life. And this seems to happen more in the entertainment industry than in other circles. Seems to. Not sure.

What is there to say? Other than, “I’ll keep her family in my thoughts, as they heal.”

It’s just so hard.

And it’s so easy for me to say, “She had so much to live for. She was so loved. She had no idea how special she was.”


Since that’s easy for me to say, now that she’s gone, I need to make sure I say that more often to those who are here.

Oh, everyone. We are all so loved. So, so, so much more loved than we probably ever would expect.

Let’s please know that.

Especially when things get dark or hopeless.

There’s so very much to live for.

Rest in peace, Natasha.
Good night, sweetness.

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  1. Bonnie Gillespie Bonnie Gillespie December 19, 2015 at 1:43 am


    Dear Bonnie,

    I don’t, often, express my feelings via the internet but YOUR words have touched a chord. On reading this sad news, my day has been consumed with thoughts of youthful loss. Especially, those with so much life yet to offer. Without getting into detail, I have this experience within. What you write, I hope, resonates to many. We truly need to be aware of our presence amongst others and take the time to feel and be aware of the presence OF others. Cherish all life and give others the kindness, attention and respect that all on this planet deserve. Be well. Thank you for your commentary.

    Rick Ravanello

    Posted by: Rick at October 4, 2009 11:39 PM


    Bonnie, what happened? I am searching the internet for information about it. Did Natasha commit suicide?

    Posted by: Jennifer Rudolph at October 5, 2009 12:19 PM


    Hi Jen,

    Yes. So sorry to report, Natasha Cuba ended her life after her birthday last week. 🙁

    Rick, thank you for your kind words. Much appreciated.

    Life and love is so precious!

    Posted by: bon at October 5, 2009 4:27 PM


    Instant choke-up. I’m so sorry for everyones loss! *hugs*

    Posted by: Claartje van Swaaij at October 6, 2009 11:45 AM


    Here is the link to her obituary.

    Services were today in Florida.

    Posted by: bon at October 6, 2009 3:09 PM


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