You may know I’ve been on a deep mind-body healing journey for almost 18 months.

This experience has changed me in many ways. One of those ways is that I am now obsessed with how the brain works.

I was already a flow theory junkie (*hai* Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi Fan Club!!) so leaning into the ways we can get the most out of our neurological playgrounds has always been the kind of thing I could geek out on for DAYS.

What’s fascinating to me in this new level of deep-diving I’ve been doing is how we get these deep ridges for the negative. How we’re evolutionarily wired to look for danger.

Pretty simple: Our primary function as humans is to NOT DIE. So, we’re carrying around these brains that are built to look for anything that could kill us and make the rest of our system go into get-the-hell-out-of-this-situation mode immediately. When we see a stick that could be a snake, our brain goes, “SNAKE! POISON! DANGER!” Even though it’s just a stick.

Problem is, we’ve crafted lifestyles that are kicked up into overdrive in the stress department way more than we were created to face. It’s not just the stress of finances or politics or complicated relationships or social justice. It’s addictive loops that are designed into our regular stops online or in apps, created to heighten the primal danger response — Did someone hit LIKE on my post? Did they hit the SAD face? The ANGRY face? Oh God. All the FOMO! I’d better go check! — in ridiculously effective ways.

If you think I’m reaching with this, do me a favor and rearrange the apps on your phone. Just put a few of ’em in totally new places. Watch yourself — MANY times per day — go to the old place and even see yourself doing it while your eyes send the signal to your brain to try and stop you because, “The app’s not there. I moved it over here!” but the rhythm for the instinct and the low-grade anxiety you’re feeling over needing to get there, un-nest all those replies they’ve cleverly made take *interaction* for you to get to see, go back again because they are showing 5 people have seen your post but there are no likes yet… what’s wrong? (What’s “wrong” is they’ve programmed the app to not reveal your like count to you ’til you’ve been back after going away, then come back AGAIN. They’re letting you build up the neuralpathways for addiction to their platform.) Deep. Primal. Shit.

Okay, so neuropsychologist Donald Hebb said, “Neurons that fire together wire together.” What that means is that any time we have a thought that combines with a feeling, we’ve created a nice fat story to chew on. (More on sensation vs. story here.)

And stories are very effective ways to create realities. You know that, of course. You create stories for a living. 😉 You count on these stories being real.

The brilliant Bessel van der Kolk talks about how we actually create deep ridges in our brains FOR danger. Essentially, while we are in some negative situation for the first time, our brain has neurons busily firing away, creating a story that’s very richly detailed so it’ll STICK easily (there’s that “wiring together” thing) so that *during* the negative experience, we’re prepping our brain with very easily-traveled tracks for worry about similar negative experiences to come.

We’re pre-paving our realities to more easily perceive danger WHILE we are in the thick of the first negative experience.

In my most recent advanced mind-body healing discussion group (OMG, I’m in the “advanced” class! We’re joking that we don’t know if that means we’re at an advanced level of understanding all of this or if it means we’re the really sad-sack cases of too much pain to hang with normal people), our awesome doctor said that part of our work is telling the story of how GREAT things are. How much better we’re feeling. How much progress we’ve made.

Dr. Stracks actually said, “We follow the narrative we create. Our brains are designed to believe our most-told stories.” He continued to say that outcome independence is important in this. “Don’t look for the result right away,” he said.

I was quick to point out that this was all sounding mighty Law of Attraction to me (I’m the resident woo-woo representative in our group) and the wire together/fire together explanation tied it all together: We create stories out of our experiences to make them easier to recall. We crave pattern recognition and we get that more efficiently thanks to those stories. And our brains by design are creating bigger stories faster about the things that could kill us.

Even when those things aren’t real.

So our work is to meet that natural instinct with our own healthy dose of storytelling about the things we WANT to be real. The life we say we want to live. We can’t just want it; we have to create a story out of it. Since we follow the narrative we create, the stories we tell ourselves become the most important ones of all. They become our daily lives.

Let’s make it great!

Two quick things before I wrap up today. One, I hope you’ll come join me on Friday the 21st at 1:30pm PDT for my next Facebook Live broadcast. (Yes, I’ll push it to my YouTube channel too. REPLAY POSTED BELOW!) Topic: “Are you handing them your NO?” You might be making it all too easy for your buyers to say NO to you. Let’s fix that stuff up in this fun livestream! You can keep up with all my events right here, BTW.

Two, if you’re intrigued by this mind-body work, consider applying for my elite mastermind program Expansive Capacity. Our topic for the month of July is your relationship with time. This is a biggie if you’ve ever felt like the clock is ticking away and you’re a bit out of control over it all. You’re not. We’re going to redefine the role of time in your life with this amazingly cool work!

Thanks for being a part of my story, y’all.

Truly, it’s a blast getting to jam with you about so much cool stuff!

Got comments on today’s BonBlast? Plop ’em in just below! Can’t wait to “yes, and…” with you!

Much love,

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Enoughness is an inside job… and sometimes you need a guide to find your way there. Let Bonnie Gillespie get you started.

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  1. Sarah Dolan June 18, 2019 at 1:41 am

    Bonnie, I swear you’re my soul sister!

    These neural pathways that we create are why positive affirmations can work to our benefit.

    It’s why rehearsing can deepen an actor’s perception of character.

    They are why being in negative environments can, quite literally, suck your spirit dry.

    Too many folks believe that “Space, the final frontier”. They are wrong. It’s the mind!

  2. Constance Zaytoun June 18, 2019 at 10:56 am

    hear! hear!
    i was around my family this weekend and oh! the critical negativity that is voiced is constant. & my shift now makes me now sound like a pollyanna when i’m around them! it’s really eye-opening! (if not a bit sad, too.)
    next month’s relationship with TIME – oh my! i’m buckling my seat belt, and of course, i’m excited!!
    thank you, Bon & team!

  3. Anna Tran June 18, 2019 at 12:38 pm

    Thank you so much for the post and for sharing resources.

    I am observing my thoughts about pain, and I wonder whether it might be possible to explore our relationship with pain as a future EC topic?

    Pain may not be the right word to describe (maybe emotions?). I came across the Curable app through one of your recommended resources and it talks about rewiring thoughts about pain and how to see it in a more positive light. I’m working on that right now.

  4. Bonnie Gillespie June 18, 2019 at 12:47 pm

    Soul sister Sarah — Yes! Absolutely! There is so much power in both the positive and negative ways we use these deep ridges. I love getting intentional about which tracks we let our neurons travel!

    Connie con-con — Ooh, fam is THE big indicator of growth, isn’t it? I’m super excited about our relationship with TIME work next month and of course you know we’re gonna Einstein it up! Love you. XO

    Anna — I almost shared a few more links but realized it was already pretty jam-packed with stuff to explore. Glad you like the resources! Of course you know I’d be down for an EC topic about pain, but I wonder if we even need that specifically. April was “your relationship with your body” and that of course got into physical sensations including pain. 🙂 Glad you’re enjoying Curable. That’s how I learned about Dr. Stracks who of course has been a big part of my life now for more than a year. Good stuff! Are you in the Curable Facebook group?

    1. Anna Tran June 18, 2019 at 1:38 pm

      Ooh, thanks for letting me know about the Curable FB group. I couldn’t find the details earlier. I just requested to join. I’ve always believed that the resources/guidance we are looking for will show up at the right time, so the links you’ve shared are enough. 🙂

      1. Bonnie Gillespie June 18, 2019 at 1:45 pm

        Go to the video section when you get in and find Nicole Sachs’ livestream replay. Really good stuff!

  5. Jimmy Lee June 18, 2019 at 1:07 pm

    I love all the “woo” you share. Good, real, stuff. I have plenty of anxiety freakouts, which are mostly over things that I blow way out of proportion when I’m pulling on the mind-taffy. But, when I’m creating the positive narratives in my mind then I tend to breathe a sigh of relief.

  6. John Keating June 18, 2019 at 3:25 pm

    Hi Bonnie!
    Of course I “know” that the stories that I tell myself are important. And that I need to be careful with all the stories I tell myself & others. This really reiterates how I really need to give this more attention. Make sure that my stories uplift me and others. Thank you for this prescient reminder!


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