Healing is personal.
Whether it’s healing from a physical wound, an emotional trauma, a long-held belief that isn’t serving you, or anything else, it’s PERSONAL.
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Last week, I underwent hypnosis for a few hours as a part of RTT (rapid transformation therapy).
I spent three weeks prior doing audio training to help make me more suggestible. If you know me, you’ve seen my very active, sharp, and busy mind at work. So there was much resistance to all of this for me! But after 15 months of unrelenting, undiagnosable pain, I was ready to explore places in my brain that were holding onto pain as a means of keeping me safe as I explore this new space in my business, my sobriety, my success in life.
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We went in. We went deep. And I continue to listen to customized audio to “cure” the work we did in the session. LOVE that word being used this way!
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As I share my elation over having an ENTIRELY new relationship with physical pain, of course, there are raised eyebrows out there. Crossed arms. Full-on eyerolls too!
Guess what: NONE of that has anything to do with me or my healing or my journey.
If I had gone under the knife? Taken massive drugs? Cool. But somehow visiting the parts of my brain that aren’t within reach on the daily to dislodge something that got stuck there? Poppycock. 🤦🏽♀️
Welp, I’ll ask you to try an experiment: Imagine pulling a lemon off the tree, cutting it in half, and then biting into it. Really imagine it. Feel it. Did you salivate? A lot?
Yup, because our brains create physical responses to thoughts and feelings we encounter throughout the day. All day. Every day. And at some point, this can become chronic pain. Food intolerances. Emotional hitchhikers that create physical imbalances.
WHY NOT explore the power of the mind to soothe — or even heal — our bodies? 💗
My point in sharing this is, yes, to celebrate this new chapter in my deep mind-body healing journey, but also to remind you that your healing can take ANY shape it needs to (it will guide you toward what you’re meant to experience) and others’ opinions DO NOT invalidate your results. 🦋
I am so grateful to how wonderful I’ve felt for a week now — I had no idea how consuming the pain had become. 💥 It was my every heartbeat. My every breath. No escape. No topic more important to have my attention. Ever. And that is no longer the case. I am free.
And here’s a PS sent to my mind-body healing group, after posting the rest of this goodness over at Instagram and here.
Just to update: We’re now one week post-session from my RTT experience and I’m doing my homework (audio the amazing Glyniss Trinder customized for me off our session) multiple times daily. I’m only required to do it once daily (~30 minutes) but I have all this free time now that I’m not doubled over in pain or crying about being in pain or journaling about being in pain or alllllll that stuff that just disappeared from my daily experience after 15 months of it.
I love the opening of those new places in the brain for processing EVERYTHING that’s happening. It’s exactly what I was looking for, having exhausted all the other things and always hitting a wall at some point.
Haven’t hit that wall yet with this, which is exciting!
I did find myself experiencing a wave of pain last night after an emotional business decision (not unanticipated by any means; we’re growing the team and that means changes) and instead of spinning out, thinking, “Nooooo! Honeymoon is over! Back to our regular programming with all the pain,” I popped on the audio again and felt those underutilized parts of my brain expand to come help soothe me and create relief.
My main point with this post and this reply: When I begged, cried, screamed, bargained, prayed for ANYTHING to give me just a wee break from the unrelenting pain, I never qualified that with, “But don’t send me a solution that others may not understand.” I would’ve tried anything. Heck, over this journey, I HAVE tried almost everything.
And now this relationship is different. So! Happy! Just to have *any* amount of time NOT feeling and pushing against the pain with every breath, every heartbeat, every thought. It’s freedom. Turns out, that was a lot of space in my life that pain was taking up.
I am loving how much extra space is in my life just having this level of relief for more than a moment at a time.
The BREAK I’ve gotten from this has allowed healing to happen differently. It’s epic.
Sending so many good vibes and love your way for more self-love, compassion, ease, and freedom. 💗 And of course patience and grace for the journey. 🕊 When it’s hard, that’s sometimes all there is. And that is enough. 🧘🏽♀️
Much love,
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Bonnie,
Are you an RTT therapist? I have been in chronic pain for 4 years and have tried many modalities.
Is this where I can contact you regarding this.
Would love to hear back.
Wrm regards,
Donna Sardanopoli 201-4-1-2065
Hello Donna. Wishing you so much ease and grace in your relationship with pain. My beloved RTT therapist is linked in the blog post. Her name is Glyniss Trinder and I highly recommend you book a consult with her. She’ll hop on Zoom with you for free to chat about whether RTT would work for your situation. Good luck and let me know how it goes!